How 'bout them dawgs?

Wow I havent been on here in forever. .-.


I feel kinda bad.

oh well.

Alot has happened. like wow.

I'm a junior. Making good grades, ia=ve been through hell and back recently these past 2 months and I wish i didnt in the first place.

Made a great, amazing bestguyfriend<3

His name is Joshua Andrews (:

Hes pretty great. He's funny, and kind and he deserves the best in the entire world.

I'm more distant with Kayla. It's like shes running away from me and I cant even catch up.

Whatever.

So this weekend was Georgia/Florida weekend and my Dawgs came out on top for the third year in a row!

I hate people.

Have I mentioned that?

Yes?

Good.

Like always im just playing FlightRising and listening to SwS. So my life is pretty great currently.

I'll be back on more. I hope.

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

Just some late night thoughts...

Listening to pitch perfect music, then jrock, then carrie underwood.

I'm all over the place with my music and thoughts right now.

How can I be that naïve girl who fall sin love easy, and who trusts people who shouldn't be trusted?

I just don't get myself sometimes.


I love 3 people with all of my heart each in their own ways and I don't know who I would pick if I had the chance too.


C.M.B, my lifelong friend, and pretty much my first love.

I.G.W the first guy to turn my head and make me feel happy, loved and perfect since;

J.T.M.T, THE love of my life. My everything. my world. My heart. My soul.

I mean, I don't deserve love.

Shit who am I telling,

yes I do,

its thanks to assholes that I don't feel desirable.

Its not my fault he broke my heart.

its not my fault I lost my v card early.

its not my fault that I am completely in love with 3 different amazing guys.

Ugh.


Is that so wrong?

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

Finally...

I did it, I finally did it.

I told my childhood friend I was in love with him. And have been my entire life.

And he accepted it. And better yet, he loves me too.


But his girlfriend....

I didn't want to impose on his relationship at all, I really didn't, but you gotta look out for number 1.
Yourself.

And as long as I'm happy, no one else matters (:


And if he's happy, i'm happy (:

Thank God For Music/ Reminiscence of the Past

Music seriously has saved me in every way possible.

I'm especially infatuated with  band called Sleeping With Sirens.

Just became a fan a few weeks ago but now own all their albums.

Kellin Quinn is really amazing.

But my top 2 favorite bands will always be 

t.A.T.u and Breathe Carolina

And that's that.

Hung out with my childhood friend yesterday and it really made me feel nostalgic. We used to be like brother and sister, then romantic stuff happened. And now were just best friends again.

I mean I truly am happy for him and his girlfriend, but there's just a piece of my heart that wishes it was me.

Anywhore,

Haven't been in here in a while.

So sorryyy, so here's a picture of me and my chf.

Sorry bout me looking ratchet.

Well I think that's enough for one day.

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

Drowning in my tears

I seriously hate heartbreaks.

And I think god is making me have all the hard ones.

So I'm gonna read fanfiction,

Drown my sorrows with food,

And cry until I feel better.

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

Life is pretty good~

So, my life. WAYYYYY better. Its simply put; Perfect~

No depression, no school, until monday cause my wack ass has summer school, no worries (:

So I'm gonna have a computer for my school work, but also i'm using it to maintain my blog <3

I can live without Facebook, possibly because I deleted mine over a year ago..
I can live without Instagram... For like 4 hours...

But my YouTube channel and Blog's.

Hell No.


So This is a simple post, so i'm gonna end it for today C:


So stay Awesome Gotham,

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

Procracstination has jumped up and bit me in the ARGHG-!

I've done over 22 assignments today -____-


And I did 15 of those assignments BEFORE.

I seriously think one of my teachers is out to get me.

I mean, reassigning work I've already done? And work I got good grades on?

Somethings up.

But thankfully, I  AM DONE XD

Thank god!!

I haven't really posted in  long time due to the fact my personal computers' driver crashed.

Leaving me with none of my pictures, none of my music, and no internet access to my YouTube Account )':

So i'm posting this, via my home schools computer.

So I probably won't be posting alot :/

But it is summer, and It is my Junior Year now  (:


I hope you people reading this are gonna have a fantastic summer (:

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

Just My ALMOST SUMMER report (:

So currently, I'm arguing with my stupid best friend about taking a picture to show you lovely people what I look like.

She's a stinky booger.

But ohmaigosh, my summer vacay starts next week!

And THANK GOD.

Because i'm finally going to be the Upperclassmen.

I'm finally gonna be a junior, and a leader in my stupid school.

Next, I just had a great Friday with my two bestfriends.

We went all over town just blasting music and having fun,

And hanging with lots of people.

But sadly, today, I had my heart broken, by a guy I was truly almost in love with.


I guess I just never had the chance because I didn't have long blonde hair and deep blue eyes.

Brownish-red hair and dark amber eyes aren't good enough )':


It really did hurt.

I was so embarrassed and ashamed to walk down the beach solemnly to hide my tears. I walked away from him and my friends.

But my friends shortly followed.

I cried. I had to get away because if I were to stay there, I would've cried in front of him.

And it really hurt.

He was the first guy that I actually had genuine feelings for since my first love, and it truly hurt.

I wish I didn't know what heartache felt like, because I think it would hurt worse than a bullet to the brain.

In my opinion.

But on a happier note,

Today with my two bestfriends chillen at the beach, riding around, drinking smoothies and ice's, and not having a care in the world is the best feeling you could experience (:


So grab your true bestfriend(s) and give them a hug and never let them go!

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

To Each Their Own

First things first. There has been a girl in my life who has been cyberbullied to the max.

And frankly. I'm tired of it.

So to whoever is taking the time to read this, please don't bully.

Bullying is a rising pandemic among teens and young adults, which is causing depression to rise and suicide to rise as well.

Thanks.


Second.

I haven't posted in forever. Like wow.

So, I think I wanna talk about some things.

First, I finally after 16 and a half years, I don't care what ANYONE thinks or says about me.

And it's freaking amazing.

It takes up so much stress, and time, and sleep, and worry to think and wonder about what people think about me.

If you don't like me, GREAT. I don't care.

If you like me, even better.

I've finally realized all that matter's is what you think of yourself, and how you portray yourself.

I used to hide that I was a huge nerd on the inside. I wanted so much to be the cool, pretty popular girl who everyone loves; But that lead to me not being myself, and I've realized people won't love you if you try to be something that your not.

So go ahead, judge me that I love anime and manga; I'm half Japanese, and its part of my heritage. And guess what? Millions of other people like it too. If you don't. All I have to say is to each their own.

Judge me that I like to cosplay, and play countless hours of video games.

But Guess. What???

Other people out there are Just. Like. Me.

So if someone likes other stuff, and doesn't see why you like said things, tell them that's okay. Because they love what they love, and you have what you love.

I can be that pretty popular girl, be friends with all the people I can, but I don't have to deny the fact that i'm a nerd.

Because I'm not denying or hiding it anymore.

So go ahead, think what you want, Because the REAL me, is finally here to stay.

I don't have one group of friends, I have many.

I don't just hang with the popular crowd, I hang with everyone.

I hate that people judge, "Cool" from what people wear, look like, and act like, and their actions. To me, that's wrong.

Every one is an individual, and if we didn't have individualism, Earth would be a lifeless and dull planet.


So that's my thoughts on that subject.

Something else.

My anime con is coming up in June. June 21-23 to be exact and I am sooooo excited ^-^

I'm going with a small group consisting of two of my best friends, my best guy friend, my bestfriends boyfriend and her sister, and it's going to be so much fun! This is probably going to be one of the first times i've never felt afraid to be myself. And I can't wait.


So thats enough for one day.

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

New cosplay; Waiting for June!

I finally received my Miku and Sailor Moon Wigs >//////<

I

Am

So

Excited.

I've been wearing them everywhere!!

I evern got asked if someone could take a picture with me (:

They knew I was being Miku and they loved me for doing it in public! (:

It made me feel good.


But mother's day with my mommy was great<3

She's my bestfriend (:


Stay Awesome Gotham.

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

Update; It'sa me!

Hey there all! (:


I'm so sorry i haven't posted in so long!

Final's and exams and all that wonderfully fun stuff.

I really don't know what to write today!

My life for the last 3 months has actually been almost stress free, and almost perfect in my opinion.


I'm starting to work on my Jacob and Renesmee fanfic today ^-^

"I still believe, that we have, a special bond of love, but I see your back is trembling!"

Monkey pink ^-^ Ape Escape 3 yo!~

Lol.

Being random is fun right?

Lol wut. That was random!

So I'm prolly gonna post some anime pictures to my Anime blog, so be sure to check that out :3!


I really wish more people would follow my blog...

I don't feel loved at ALL. Gosh darnit.

I know I have one, and Shes AWESOME XD


So, I like weird words. Like,

Kurfuffle, barflask. And others :3

Okay, Stay awesome Gotham!


~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

The Love of Jacob and Renesmee

It baffles be that Stephanie Meyer left the huge cliff hanger of the Jacob & Renesmee Love story.

I mean... c'mon...

PLEASE WRITE ANOTHER BOOK.

Or make another movie, or do SOMETHING.

Yes, I am a Twilight saga FANATIC.

I've read the books all a million times...

I've seen the movies and know all of them word for word.

Yeah. I know.

But I have decided...

I am going to try and write my own Jacob and Renesmee fan-fiction ^-^

I know there are a gazillion out there, but if I am going to achieve my dream of becoming a
professional writer.

I've got to start from nowhere and work myself up.

Sooooooo.

I don't know how, and I dont know when, but I will be starting my fanfic soon.

I am still working on my other main one, Dirty Little Secret.

So please stay posted ^-^

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

The Demon That Once Was Me

There once was a girl,

Who had a beautiful smile.

Who had many friends,

And a great sense of style.

This girl seemed happy,

She had not a care.

Not a trouble in sight,

To see her frown was rare.

This girl was a star,

In her classes and sports,

From her pink binders and notes,

To the Nike symbol on her shorts.

It never seemed possible,

To see this beauty cry,

But behind even the honest,

There is always a lie.

She would come home at 2,

And run to her room.

She'd slam her door shut,

Only to find her doom.

She'd slam on her pillow,

She'd cry and she'd scream,

She'd wish she was dead,

And that this was all a dream.

She'd punch her wall,

And kick her bed,

As she could only say

"God, please let me drop dead."

She found her only hope,

In what seemed to be her friend.

She walked to her dark closet,

And pulled out her end.

This girl was an artist,

But not in a good way,

She acted of the broken,

And her eyes would fade to gray.

In her weary eyes,

She saw nothing wrong,

With the way she acted tough,

And the way she acted Strong.

She'd smile at her friend,

And she'd smile a slight grin.

She'd bring up her arm,

And put the blade to her skin.

She'd paint pretty picture's,

But her painting's had a twist,

Her paint brush was a blade,

And the canvas was her wrist.

Carrie

I never knew how bad bullying could become.

Even in a movie.

A fantasy movie that seemed like it could actually happen...

My mother and I just finished watching Carrie, a Stephen Spielberg movie, made in 1976.

A girl who possessed telekinetic powers was always picked on.

Well a kind boy gave her a chance and took her to prom.

well the girl who was the antagonist, killed a pig and used its blood to pour all over her.

This was done when she and her date won (Rigged) Prom King and Queen.

The blood caused Carrie to loose control of her powers and she killed everyone by accident.

I dont wanna type the whole plot. But it really hit home.

Bullying is scary; in every degree.

And it kills me to think that bullying is the, "Cool" thing to do nowadays.

I used to be bullied. But it was mild, and done just as a joke.

Now i'm one of the popular kids.

And i would NEVER dream of hurting someone else's feelings. Because I know how bad it hurts...

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

My Happy Sunday~

Today, was an amazing day!

I spent the whole entire day with my best friend (:

Her name is Kayla, and she really is my other half.

We are exactly the same in every way possible.

For a few short months, she actually wasn't my bestfriend...

She left me for no reason.

I thought it was my fault. But it wasn't.

She has returned though.

She saw how much pain she put me through, and she realized what she did was wrong, for the both of us.

And ever since, we have been attached at the hip.

And she is never leaving me ever again<3

It's great to have a best friend don't you think?

Comment a thing you and your best friend do or share (:

Or perhaps a memory you love that you guys have together.

I love my best friend, and I do believe God made us for each other<3

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

I Wish

I wish for once...

One time...

I wish that I could live like a romance movie.

I'm unexpectedly swept off by a guy who doesn't even realize I exist.

Who ends up becoming so close to me and my friends/family.

Who I end up fighting a force that is trying to hurt or endanger people important to us.

Who I end up falling madly in love with, and he falls immensely in love with me.

I wish that I could actually live that fairy tale... For just one day...

But a girl can only dream unitll her real prince charming comes and saves her.

So my beloved Prince.

Hurry up and Save Me.

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

A Love Forgotten.

I am one of the millions of people who are diagnosed with Depression.

It seems like almost everyday I lose a little peice of me inside, but then again, I gain strength from hanging on.

Writing is my way of channeling my feelings through my body, and out of my heart.

I currently now do not consider myself as, "Depressed."

Nevertheless, I still do have feelings of sorrow and regret that come and go...

It's a scary feeling.

It's like a monster, or a parasite.

Slowly but surely, eating you alive from the inside out.

I once believed that I would never be loved. Just because one person in my past hurt me to the point that I didn't want to live anymore.

I let that person have so much control over me, when I shouldn't have.

He didn't even know he had such control over me.

But that's what happens when you fall in love.

You lose yourself.

So for those of you reading this, thank you.

You are beautiful and pure, inside and out. And do NOT let anyone tell you otherwise.
Cause if they do...

I'll come and beat em up (;

Thank you all.

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal

I've finally found my Sacred Grove.

Hello all!

My pseudonym is Steel Angel Eternal.

But you guys can call me Karinka (:

I have just recently gotten into blogging, and frankly, it has become my addiction.

I guess its due to the fact I love writing in journals and having people read my writing.

I hope you all enjoy my post's and I will try to post something new everyday!

Thank you all for support!!

Please check out my links to my favorite sites.

If you ask me questions about anything I will answer them in my full knowledge!

~Spread your wings and Fly~

SteelAngelEternal